jamison

Although I knew this was a possibility and where we were likely headed, I still dread telling you, and accepting, that we had to let Jamison go at 9:45 this morning.

Despite all of the prayers, support and love a little cat could ever ask for, Jamison’s poor body was shutting down. His immune system was no longer responding, his liver failing.

He was suffering and he deserved comfort. He fought hard. He was courageous. My little panther…

He made it 2 weeks longer than anyone expected. Those 2 weeks were packed with love and he was treated like a king. Everything revolved around him. I would’ve done it forever if he hadn’t been suffering.

We brought him home with us to show Macy before bringing him to the crematorium. Her reaction was filled with so much emotion. It was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. A slight tail wag, a sniff, ears fell back, sniffed more, gave the gentlest kisses, and then protected his body. We could see her daring Noodle to try to come near Jamison so we eventually had to crate her so Noodle and Molly could see him. She fought going into the crate, not wanting to leave her best friend.

Noodle wanted nothing to do with him after he sniffed him – just as he did with Mya. Molly saw him through the gate of her crate and seemed upset/concerned.

We just got home from the crematorium not too long ago.

The hardest part for me has always been leaving your baby’s physical form behind, knowing that it’s the last time you will see it, feel it, smell it, kiss it.

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This paw’s print will forever remain on my heart.

Before I end this, I just want to thank all of you for helping me get through the last 2 weeks. You helped me not only by reassuring me that I knew what was best for Jamison but just by letting me know you were here and that you cared about us. You played a major role in my ability to hold it together and be here to do what I had to do without shutting down.

The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this, the last battle, can’t be won.

You will be sad I understand,
But don’t let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn’t want me to suffer so
When the time comes, please, let me go.

Take me to where to my needs they’ll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end.

And hold me firm and speak to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree,
It is a kindness you do to me.

Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.

Don’t grieve that it must be you,
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We’ve been so close, we two, these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

~Author Unknown

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Until we meet again, sweet boy…

About noodle4president

I was a discarded, lost little stray without a house or a family...until my mom found me. Now, I am the happiest, most loved dog in the whole world!

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  1. Three Pups and a Couple of Kitties says:

    Samantha and Greg,
    You just did the most unselfish thing a person can do for their fur babies. You put Jamison’s needs above all else. I’m crying with you and will continue to hold you in my prayers. I know from experience that the day will come that all the good memories of Jamison will outweigh the sadness that you are feeling.
    ~Hugs
    Margret

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  2. speedyrabbit says:

    Oh that is Sad news,But I guess he just didn’t have the strength to keep on fighting.I am so sorry for your loss,but you will see him again,much love to you all,xx Rachel and Speedy

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  3. oh I’m so sad with you… and I agree… this moment breaks our hearts…. I wish I could sit next to my beloved furkid for the rest of my life before they bring him away… but that’s not possible… Hugs to you, there are no words what can lower the grief and the sadness, I know… but we are there for you when you need a friend who is on your side… even in the darkest times…

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  4. Oh, no, not the news anyone wanted to hear. I am here crying.

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  5. I’m so sorry. Jamison was an amazing cat, and although he will be missed by many, I can’t help but be comforted by the idea of him running and playing with my Angel sis Katie over the bridge.

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  6. pilch92 says:

    I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to this sweet boy. XO

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  7. Liking this post just seems wrong. I am so heartbroken for you, Samantha. We had hoped and prayed your little fella would somehow survive. Please know our thoughts are with you and pray that tender memories will provide you with some comfort. RIP beautiful Jamison. ღonika, Sam & Elsa 🐾

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  8. To have soul companionship in the form of animals is one of the dearest experiences of life. I do believe you will be reunited again in the great beyond, until then you have a kitty angel by your side 🙂
    My thoughts are with you all- get some rest if you can.

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  9. colinandray says:

    I cannot think of any more that you “guys”could have done. Be thankful that Jamison is now at peace, and reflect on all the good times that were had. He would no doubt want you to remember those moments, and I have no doubt that he will be engraved in your heart, just as Skeeta is in mine.

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  10. Mrs P says:

    I am so, so very sorry for your loss

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  11. Princess Leah says:

    I am so very sorry, sending you lots of loves and hugs
    Loves and licky kisses
    Princess Leah xxx

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  12. I’m so sorry. We know how hard Jamison fought to stay with you and you did everything possible for him.

    ((((hugs))))
    The Florida Furkids and Mom Sharon

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  13. KDKH says:

    I am so sorry. It was good of you to provide closure for your other pets as well.

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  14. We’re so sorry for your loss. Hugs and purrs.

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  15. Tears are falling for all of you! So sorry Jamison didn’t make it. Some battles, no matter how hard we fight, can not be won. I know the pain of losing him is deep. 😦 {{{Hugs}}}

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  16. cheryl pierce says:

    May Bast rest dear Jamison well in fields full of mice and butterflies!! Having made the same sad but loving decision ourselves last month, we send you supportive love and blessings. Let the happy memories fill the void in your hearts. ❤

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  17. Amy says:

    I sit here crying with you. You gave your all to help Jamie battle to live, and made the hardest decision ever to end a suffering that could not be relieved. Dear Macy. ❤

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  18. we are so very very sorry…..nothing is harder

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  19. Oh I’m so sad and sorry for you all but sweet Jamison gave it every ounce of strength he had – he proved that these last days. He tried to eat, tried to move around more – but it was what they do after all, these brave strong little souls we love so dearly and they do it for US. I felt that strongly with Sammy too. He tried for US. Jamison was so horrifically injured it would truly have been a miracle if he’d made it without some sort of lasting damage/effect. He is at peace now and in no pain…..I’m sure my Sammy was at the Bridge to welcome Jamison and helped him pick out a soft cloud for naps…..and will make sure he gets his much deserved rest. YOU need rest too – this has been a terribly difficult time for all of you. You did EVERYTHING possible though – NEVER let that doubt enter your head – NEVER. You were Jamison’s Angel…….now he will be YOURS.

    Love and Hugs, Pam

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  20. I am so sorry about this on so many levels. My heart is just breaking. I share my deepest, most heartfelt sympathy.

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  21. gahlearner says:

    I’m so sorry, that was the hardest decision to make, but sometimes it’s the last act of love for a suffering pet friend. ❤

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  22. Summer says:

    I’m so, so sad for you. My human and I are both heartbroken and I’m sending gentle purrs your way.

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  23. So sorry. You did great from beginning to end. Prayers for your whole family to recover and move ahead. And never forget that brave little guy. I know I won’t.

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  24. I am so sorry to hear this. I don’t have any words, just tears…

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  25. the20somethingexistentialcrisis says:

    I’m sorry you had to go through that. I know if I had something like that happen to one of my fur babies, I’d be in pieces. You did the best you could and it seems like he had an awesome life. Thoughts and prayers.

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  26. The OP Pack says:

    We are so very sorry for your loss. We wish we had known Jamison before this tragedy. We have seen your name mentioned on so many blogs – we should have made a visit earlier. You did all that you could for your little panther and eve more beyond that. Soft woos and gentle hugs from all of us.

    Hugs and Woos – Lightning, Misty and Mom

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  27. 😢 😢 😢 😢 😢
    Samantha and I are crying and our hearts are aching with you.

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  28. Connie says:

    My heart breaks for you, I am so very sorry

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  29. cecilia07 says:

    Dear me we are truly heart broken. Jamison was so sweet and loved his family both 2 and 4 leggers and we know he will be missed. I am so very sorry but your last loving act for him was what he needed. Run free and w/o pain sweet handsome panther.
    Hugs madi and mom

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  30. So very sad…our hearts are with you.

    Jean

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  31. nordhuesn says:

    We send hugs, licks and hope that you will find peace knowing Jamison is pain free. He will stay in your heart and mind forever. Thank you for being such good parents.

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  32. Frankie and Ernie says:

    WE are SOOOOO sorry. We know that YOU and Jamison did the very Best to Stay… butt there is PEACE now…
    Til we meet again…. Jamison, Run Free and Fast through Fields of Cat Nip and plenty of MICE.

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  33. Our hearts ache for you. We are so very sorry ♥

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  34. Becky says:

    Heartbroken for you and yours.

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  35. LB Johnson says:

    That is heartbreaking news. You did all you could and then when it was time, acted with a courageous compassion that takes the largest of hearts to accomplish. Hugs.

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  36. Oh no! This is not the news we were hoping for. We are so very sorry and we send you a ton of comforting purrs and gentle headbutts. RIP, Jamieson. You wil be missed. 😦

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  37. I am so sorry to hear the sad news. Please know that we in Blogville share in your grief. Wrapping you in virtual hugs.

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  38. fredrieka says:

    So very sorry.

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  39. Fozziemum says:

    Sam and Greg so sorry that you have had to lose your precious Jamison…he knew you loved him and fought to stay but sometimes all our love and prayers are not enough..you did right by him..he knows that too…the hardest thing to give our precious ones the gift of a pain free farewell…our hearts hurt for you..we know only too well we know that words are hollow at this time…we send our love and ask you be kind to yourselves at this time..your boy is painfree but you are not…i know Jamison is welcomed by so many precious fur kids at the bridge..deepest sympathy Bev Phil and fur kids xxxxx

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  40. I am just so sorry…no words…there aren’t enough tears in the world to cover how sad I am for you…I have my own little girl panther…and to look at your sweet baby just breaks my heart. You are a good mama…and he knew it…Again, I am so sorry for your loss.

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  41. Sully says:

    I am truly sorry for your loss.

    Aroo to you,
    Sully

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  42. We are so sorry. He (and you) fought so hard.

    Your Pals,

    Murphy & Stanley

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  43. Nylabluesmum says:

    Mee-you Lady Samantha an Mistur Greg an Noodle mee Moodle an Macy an Molly……mee has no werdss….LadyMum iss weepin like a baby an mee has sumfing in mee eyess all so….
    C@RP it iss hard to say “Goodbye” to a Panfur Brofur, speshelly mee BFF’ss Panfur kat…..
    Pleeze accept mee sympaffiess an LadyMum’ss an KNOW wee are here to mee-yow to if you want ok???
    Noodle mee Moodle mee iss there sittin rite beeside you; mee paw on yurss. Wee get thru this together…Purromise!
    Macy an Molly mee iss sorry you lost yur furend all so.
    All mee ❤ LUV ❤ an ***nose rubsss*** Siddhartha Henry Penry an {{{hugsss}}} LadyMum ❤

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  44. The Admiral says:

    Samantha,
    There are no words. Take care of the rest of the crew – hold them close.

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  45. Ann Adamus says:

    Sharing in your sadness, and sending prayers and purrs for all.

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  46. prancer pie says:

    We are so saddened to read this. Sending the rest of you gentle purrs and kisses of comfort.

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  47. I have walked a similar path with my dogs a few times now, so I know that none of us can really understand what it is for you, no matter how much we empathize with your pain. I was so very sorry to read even the title of this sad post. Forgive me, but I cannot bring myself to add a “like” to it.

    Do your very best to stand back from the “maybe if I’d only done …” edge. As many on this page have already said, you were magnificent in the manner in which you cared for Jamison’s needs throughout – ALL of them, not merely the physical.

    Focus on grief-work – there will be precious little comfort to be had for either of you for a bit, even from the fur-babies who grieve with you as well. I know you know that the wound in your heart will heal eventually – and that there will always remain a scar. (How much worse if their passing left no permanent mark there).

    But right now I’m sure you must be shattered – and I am so very sorry for your loss.

    xx,
    Madelyn Griffith-Haynie (and Tink)

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    • I’m so glad that you write the things you do. Your words always bring comfort. Thank you ❤

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      • How kind you are to take time to respond. I don’t know that I would have had your strength of will, were I in your position at this moment.

        Be good to yourself and your babies right now – we will all be here when you are ready to move forward once more.

        Sending love and prayers
        xx,
        mgh

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      • It’s this community. You all help make it so much less painful because you can empathize. You don’t expect anything. It’s healing to read comments and write back to people. Secluding myself from the world is just going to make it hurt worse because then I’ll dwell. ❤

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      • When life hit me in the face, that was my own conclusion as well (though not nearly as quickly as you have come to it). I took it as an indication that a bit of healing was taking place.

        I hope your participation online means that you are feeling stronger and better able to cope with every day that passes.
        xx,
        mgh

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  48. We’re so sorry for your loss. Jamison is a beautiful angel watching over you.

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  49. Charlie says:

    Oh Sam ……. Huuuuuuuuugs!!

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